The Stilinski House | Night

[robinonadderall]

Stiles...well he felt like he was finally getting to be able to sleep after a really, really long, tough day. He and Derek broke apart from the rest of the group soon after everything had happened, though Stiles did stay long enough to find out that Aiden had also died. Another death because of him.

His father wasn't home because of the havoc the nogitsune had caused at the hospital and sheriff's station but he was aware that it was all over. At least Stiles hoped it was all over. He didn't really feel all that relieved about it. Allison was still dead, Aiden was still dead and Derek was still acting weird.

He went up to his room when he got to the house, not really acknowledging the fact that Derek was right behind him. He really just needed to lie down.

[LAST POST FOR REAL I SWEAR. For Derek!]

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[justlurkinghere]

Derek stared at him. "I understand it, I just don't agree with it."

[robinonadderall]

"Look, I'm sorry, okay?" he said. "I am. I didn't want to scare you."

He was not, however, sorry for trying to take care of things when his options were limited.

[justlurkinghere]

"By pushing me away?" Derek snapped, looking more spooked than angry.

[robinonadderall]

"I didn't want you to get hurt!" he said. "You would have done the same thing. You have done the same thing."

[justlurkinghere]

He was indeed a big old hypocrite.

"We weren't together then!"

[robinonadderall]

"I'm not supposed to protect you now that we're together?" he asked.

[justlurkinghere]

"No!" Wait. Crap. "You're supposed to let me help you."

[robinonadderall]

"I did let you help." Hey, he didn't run off and leave Derek on the island this time! "I just wasn't going to let you kill yourself."

[justlurkinghere]

"I wouldn't die from it." Maybe.

[robinonadderall]

"You don't know that." And neither did he for that matter, but whatever.

[justlurkinghere]

"And you do? More secrets you know about me?"

Derek. Derek, take it down a notch.

[robinonadderall]

Well, yes. And he planned on coming clean about that once he had a damn minute to get everything together.

"I wasn't going to take the risk."

[justlurkinghere]

Derek's jaw went tight and he paced, putting distance between them.

[robinonadderall]

"I'm not going to be sorry for keeping you safe." So. Keep on pacing, Derek.

[justlurkinghere]

He would!

"Safe?" Derek snarled, turning on him. "You're my pack and you were going to kill yourself. Do you have any idea how that feels?"

[robinonadderall]

Stiles crossed his arms over his chest and looked down at the floor. "I do. A little."

Because, hi, motel of horror last summer.

[justlurkinghere]

"A little."

[robinonadderall]

"Yes, a little," he said. "Not the whole pack thing but Scott tried to kill himself last summer while that whole wolfsbane creepy motel thing was happening."

Stiles. Stiles. It was stupid to go into that considering the topic at hand.

[justlurkinghere]

"And did you just let him go for it?" Since Scott was alive, he had an idea.

[robinonadderall]

"No," he admitted. "I-I told him that if he was going to do it then I was going to go with him and he stopped."

But that was a totally different thing! Really.

[justlurkinghere]

Derek stared at him for that. Because his kicked puppy look was epic.

[robinonadderall]

Yeah, that had been a stupid thing to bring up. "That was a stupid thing to bring up."

Just needed to voice that out loud there.

[justlurkinghere]

A TERRIBLE THING TO BEING UP, YEP.

"Right."

[robinonadderall]

Stiles sighed, running his hand through his hair for a moment. "I can't change what I did, Derek."

[justlurkinghere]

Derek huffed, looking away. "So what now?"