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[robinonadderall]

Stiles woke up dazed and feeling sick to his stomach early in the morning, while it was still dark. It had taken some time to really believe that he was control of his body again and it wasn't some trick by the nogitsune. Eventually he began to realize that this was real and for now the threat of hurting people was shelved momentarily.

Which was when the guilt started flowing. He had killed people, a lot of people. Blown up the sheriff's station, hurt Coach, got one Derek and Chris Argent arrested and tortured Scott and the person that meant the most to him. He couldn't even call Derek himself to let him know he was back to himself, he had to get his dad to do it. He wanted to give Derek the option to never talk to him again if he wanted it.

After assuring Scott, Lydia and his father that he was okay, he holed himself up in his room. He had already made a decision on how to keep everyone safe from himself, he just needed to set everything up. He knew people weren't going to be happy about it, but it was the best he could come up with.

[NFB due to distance and for one!]

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[justlurkinghere]

Derek went about to petting Stiles' back to soothe a little more of the tension. "True, though."

Bicker/flirting was their avoidance method.

[robinonadderall]

"Doesn't stop you from putting your mouth on it every chance you get," he murmured.

[justlurkinghere]

Derek scoffed like Stiles was so very mistaken.

"I know--" He started, pursing his lips as he tried to gather his thoughts into something coherent. "I know you're trying to protect me. In case."

In case Stiles died from the same disease that took Claudia Stilinski.

"I've lived through a lot of loss. But I lived." That got a bitter huff. "All I'm good at doing, really. Surviving." It was a thing. "I'll fight tooth and nail for you to make it through this, but I don't want you to think you need to protect me from that."

[robinonadderall]

"Yes I do," he said quietly. "You shouldn't have to deal with all of this after everything you've been through."

[justlurkinghere]

"No one should," Derek replied, running his fingers through Stiles' hair. "Not you or your dad either. Sometimes we don't get a choice in it."

[robinonadderall]

"You're good at more things than surviving," Stiles said, trailing his fingers across Derek's chest absently.

[justlurkinghere]

Derek snorted softly resuming his petting of Stiles' neck and back. "You're impossible."

[robinonadderall]

Stiles huffed. "I wasn't just talking about that."

[justlurkinghere]

"Uh huh."

[robinonadderall]

Stiles sighed and looked up at Derek. "You know what I meant."

[justlurkinghere]

"I know." They had a special relationship. "But I am good at that. Only with you."

[robinonadderall]

"Better be only with me," he said, leaning in to give Derek another kiss.

[justlurkinghere]

Derek kissed him back easily. As long as they avoided the discussion of Sunday, he could do this. "Can I stay here until Friday?"

Look, he didn't want to leave Stiles just yet, okay?

[robinonadderall]

Please, Derek, it was inevitable.

"Yeah," Stiles answered like it was obvious. "Yeah, of course. I want you to."

[justlurkinghere]

Shhh, you.

"I'd like to." So they could be painfully sappy at each other while the Sheriff manfully ignored them.

[robinonadderall]

"Okay," he said, kissing him again. "Did you...did you even bring spare clothes and stuff?"

We're you going to have to borrow clothes from yourself, Derek?

[justlurkinghere]

Derek... did not think that far ahead. "I just left when your dad called me," he admitted.

[robinonadderall]

"How..." Stiles pressed his lips together like he was thinking about whether or not he wanted to bring this up. "How did you get out of the basement?"

[justlurkinghere]

"I howled. Jack came." See how nice a pack was?

[robinonadderall]

Stiles frowned, hating himself all over again for that. "Did you tell him what was happening to me?"

[justlurkinghere]

"I told him about the nogitsune," Derek muttered. "He promised to look into it there. See if he can't find anything to help us."

[robinonadderall]

He nodded again. "I'm sorry. For that...and for talking to Peter last summer too."

So he was going to confirm that was true, yeah.

[justlurkinghere]

Derek went tense, heartbeat speeding up as that sunk in.

"I was going to tell you."

[robinonadderall]

"You didn't have to, it wasn't any of my business," he said, moving to slide off of Derek. He didn't want Derek to feel awkward by that while they were talking about this. "It doesn't matter."

[justlurkinghere]

Something dropped out in Derek's chest as he watched Stiles pull away. He forced himself to stay still, not follow as he looked down at the sheets instead.