Casa de Stilinski, Thursday Afternoon

[robinonadderall]

Scott had earned so many best friend points Monday night when he picked Stiles up from the hotel Derek oh so kindly abandoned him in. He had since spent the last four days moping, eating junk food, hanging out with his dad and listening to Scott come up with increasingly more creative ways to kill Derek. Which was amusing, but didn't necessarily make him feel better.

He was supposed to be hanging out with Lydia and Allison later which probably meant that he'd be their living shopping cart while they went to Macy's or something while they told him how he should deal with his current situation.

He could probably use some solid advice, now that he thought about it. Which would be why he was pausing his current moping session to pick up the phone and call Kitty.

[For the aforementioned callee and other calls/e-mails/texts/etc if people want!]

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[throughaphase]

Kitty was in her office at the bar at the time, trying to get some stuff done when the last thing she wanted to do was do things, so she was happy for the distraction of a phone call. Especially when she saw who it was.

"Hey there," she greeted him.

[robinonadderall]

"Hey," he said. "You busy?"

[throughaphase]

"Not really," she said, literally pushing some paper away from her so she didn't feel tempted to do that. Thanks, Stiles! "What's up?"

[robinonadderall]

"I need advice, I guess. Or someone to hear me vent. Yeah, that one," he said, sighing. "Derek and I got into a fight and I don't think there's any coming back from this one."

[throughaphase]

Her first thought was that she wouldn't really count on there being no coming back from something with these two, but this was Derek so who knew. "Uh oh. What happened?"

[robinonadderall]

"Well background on it before we get into the 'Derek's an asshole' part is that I decided to tell Derek stuff about my past and to let him help me with this nemeton stuff," he said. "There's no point in hiding some of that stuff anymore. It doesn't look like he's headed down the same path as my Derek and it's not like anybody in my Beacon Hills will bat an eye at weird Fandom stuff after the stuff they've seen. So if things go to hell, sure, I would call on him for help if I needed it like I did with you."

[throughaphase]

"Makes sense to me," Kitty said. "Sounds easier all the way around, really." Well, unless it meant dealing with two Dereks at once but one thing at a time.

[robinonadderall]

"Yeah that was my thought," he said. "So Monday we were in a hotel in Orange County 'cause that's one of my college picks and I started telling him about the other Derek and how he was an alpha and had a pack and how that didn't go well."

Which was putting it lightly, considering what happened to Boyd and Erica.

"And he freaked out. Started trying to leave, doing that thing where he thought everybody would be better off if he wasn't around and how everybody he cares about dies. And, don't worry, I pointed out how stupid that way of thinking is considering we're all in danger of dying no matter who is around considering our less than normal lifestyles."

[throughaphase]

"I was just going to say." And Kitty was someone who had that 'everyone I care about dies' thing, too. "So I'm guessing that freakout started the fight?"

[robinonadderall]

"Yeah. I refused to back down 'cause I'm sick of the whole self-pity thing and he finally started to resort to trying to tell me he didn't care about me or if I got into trouble. I guess he wanted to hurt me enough that I wouldn't want him back," Stiles said. "I knew what he was doing and I was trying to ignore it because nobody would believe he didn't care about me, nobody."

He sighed again and rubbed a hand across his face. He as good as admitted to Kitty his feelings for Derek before, so he shouldn't be so embarrassed about this now. "...then he told me he knew about my huge crush on him and that I had no chance with him because he's not interested in desperate teenagers."

[throughaphase]

Well that dropped Kitty's jaw, not that Stiles could see it. And she'd had enough rejection happen from older guys she'd really really really been interested in to be sympathetic/outraged on his behalf.

"...Oh my god, he didn't. What the hell, Derek."

[robinonadderall]

"Yeah." He had rehashed the story enough to not get overly emotional about it by now, but it still felt like a stab to the chest. "I cried like the total wuss that I am and he left me alone in the hotel. I had Scott come and get me."

Sure, he had the rental car keys but he had been in no state to drive. He had already wrecked one car this year, thank you.

[throughaphase]

"Oh honey. I'm going to beat him up," Kitty decided. "Where are you now?"

[robinonadderall]

"Beacon Hills," he said. "I really don't want to risk running into him in Fandom."

[throughaphase]

"Totally can't blame you. How are you doing?" Probably a loaded question.

[robinonadderall]

"I'm embarrassed and ashamed and pissed off," he said. "I'm not stupid; I knew that he and I weren't going to be a thing, that's why I kept it to myself. He didn't have to rub it in my face. Lydia never did and she's known I've had a crush on her since the third grade."

Lydia had just ignored Stiles which he was now thankful for now that he had experienced flat out rejection.

"And he completely ruined our friendship." Which obviously trumped any embarrassment he might have felt. "Even if he apologizes how am I supposed to even be in the same room as him again?"

[throughaphase]

"I know it feels that way now, but fixing the friendship is possible," Kitty told him. "I've been where you are. I'm not saying it'll definitely be fixed, but you both have to want it. It just takes time. Maybe a lot of time. And it takes the other person to not be an ass about it."

[robinonadderall]

"It won't be the same," Stiles said. "Besides, he doesn't seem to want to be friends with a desperate teenager anyway."

[throughaphase]

"It doesn't sound like that's what he said. And if he didn't want to be friends, he wouldn't be going anywhere with you," Kitty pointed out. "Derek's natural reaction is to shove people away, and it sounds like he said the worst thing he could come up with whether he feels that way or not. It doesn't excuse that he said it at all, though."

[robinonadderall]

"He could have come up with something else," Stiles mumbled. There may have been a sniffle there as well "That was just--it was the worst thing he could have said to me. Nobody has ever made me feel like that before. This was like five minutes after I said he was my best friend too."

[throughaphase]

"That's why he did it. He knew how much it'd hurt. That's what makes it such an asshole thing to do," she said. "You didn't deserve this at all."

[robinonadderall]

"I probably shouldn't have started off by sharing that tidbit of my Derek's past," Stiles said. "But yeah, it was an asshole thing to do, and I don't know what to do next."

[throughaphase]

"How long are you planning on staying in Beacon Hills?" Kitty wondered.

[robinonadderall]

"I have class on Monday." He did not switch schools, no matter how appealing it seemed to be in his more dramatic moments.

[throughaphase]

"Well, you don't have to deal with Derek anymore than you want to, and I wouldn't try until you feel ready for that," Kitty advised. "If you run into him, you're totally within your right to just turn and walk away until you're okay with seeing him."

[robinonadderall]

"He'd probably prefer it that way," Stiles said bitterly. "I hope you punch him in the face next time you see him. Or get Mr. Barton to do it."

[throughaphase]

"Depending on what he says, it could always happen," Kitty said. "I think Clint might have to be kept separate from him for a little while."

[robinonadderall]

"Nah, I think Mr. Barton should punch him." It'd make him feel better!

[throughaphase]

Well, if Stiles said it... "I could tell him. It'd be like a late Christmas present."

[robinonadderall]

"Just warn him he might run the risk of hurting his hand," Stiles said. "It hurts to punch a werewolf."

Stiles having done it before.

[throughaphase]

Clint hurting himself wasn't really anything new. "You're really serious about this, huh?"

[robinonadderall]

Stiles shrugged even though Kitty couldn't see it. "I'm pissed off."

[throughaphase]

"And rightfully so. If I was there, you'd be getting hugs right now," Kitty said.

[robinonadderall]

"You can give me them when I get back to town," he said. "Thanks for listening to me whine."

[throughaphase]

"This isn't whining. It's a natural reaction to what's gotta be like the top three worst feelings in the world," she said. "Besides, that's what I'm here for."

[robinonadderall]

"I still appreciate it," he said quietly. "I haven't felt this bad in awhile, and that's including the nightmares."

[throughaphase]

"It'll get better," Kitty promised. "It's going to hurt for a while, but when you get a little distance from it, it starts stinging less."

[robinonadderall]

"Yeah, I keep telling myself that," he said. "It just sucks. I thought...I don't know, I think I was counting on him to be there for me. Which wasn't fair, I know, but it still sucks."

[throughaphase]

"Well, friends are supposed to be there for each other. It's not wrong of you to count on him for that," Kitty told him. "I think he's just differently emotioned than most other people, and the closest to him get hit with it."

[robinonadderall]

"I guess," Stiles said. "I'll get over it."

Maybe. Probably.

[throughaphase]

"You will." Eventually. Kitty's issues on this subject still reared their ugly heads seven years later. "I'll tell Clint he's got permission, and maybe I can get the squirrels to get some pictures. Anything to make the process easier."

[robinonadderall]

"Thanks," Stiles said, huffing out a laugh. "I'll see you after the weekend. I'll try to make stealthy appearances in town."

[throughaphase]

"And you're always welcome at my place if you need to hide out," she said. "Take care of yourself, okay?"

[robinonadderall]

"I will," he said. "See you, Kitty."